Fear of Submission

The month long workshop I’ve been taking called “Supermom: The Art of Juggling Motherhood and a Writing Career” has come to an end and it was worth every penny I spent. While I’m still adjusting to my new routine, I’ve been more productive in the past month than I have been all year. It’s exhilarating and exciting. If you get the opportunity to take this workshop, I highly recommend that you do so. Check out the Eliza Knight website for more information.
As my revisions roll along and I get closer to the final “The End” – before an agent or editor gets hold of it – I find myself getting a little nervous. Scared shitless, actually. Because once it’s done, I’ll have to submit it. That’s the whole point of this. It’s why I joined Romance Writers of America and Virginia Romance Writers. It’s why I drive down to Richmond each month for meetings. It’s why I spend money on online workshops and critique services. So that my books will be published. And in order to get published, you have to submit. To contests. To agents. To editors. No one will read your book if you keep it to yourself.
I’ve received two rejection letters in my writing career. The first was in 1997 when I submitted a manuscript entitled Purple Horizons to Harlequin for their Temptations line. (Don’t sleep on the title- it related to the story :D ) That rejection affected me deeply and I packed away my floppy disks for 9 years. The second happened in 2007 when I sent the first version of my current wip (work in progress) to Silhouette Nocturne, only to be told that it wasn’t right for their line. (Code for: It sucks!) This time, I didn’t stop writing. Instead, I figured out how to make the story better. And so the time will come when I will again submit my manuscript to someone who will take a few days to read what it took me a few years to complete. And that someone gets to decide if it will be published for others to read or resigned to the bottom drawer of my filing cabinet. Am I ready for that? Yeah, I am.

What are you willing to sacrifice?

I have dozens of incomplete novels on my computer. Some of them are just a chapter or two. Some of them are quite a bit longer. But none of them are finished.

A year and a half ago, I changed that. I finished writing my first full-length novel.

Who’s my agent?

What contests have I entered?

Where can you purchase it?

Not so fast.

See, the problem is that I’ve spent the last year in revision hell. Which is funny since the revision process hasn’t been that difficult, when I’ve sat down to work on it. But I hadn’t sat down to consistently work on it in months. At this rate I knew I would still be revising this thing in another three years. Or worse, I would have given up. I used to blame it on trying to write while raising three kids ages 6, 4 and 3. But there are authors who still manage to write while raising young ones. I had to decide: make excuses or finish my novel. I chose my novel.

I believe that things happen in my life for a reason. The day after I made that decision I saw an online workshop called Supermom: The Art of Juggling Motherhood and a Writing Career. It was exactly what I was looking for. The first week our instructor, historical romance author Eliza Knight, had us jot down a daily schedule and assign an amount of time to each task.

Coffee & breakfast: 25 minutes. Getting the kids ready for school: 1 hour. Household chore: 1-2 hours.

When I added up the time it took to complete all of the tasks, it was around 10 hours. Adding in the 6-7 hours of sleep I usually get a night left 7 hours unaccounted for! Where was that time going?

This doesn’t mean that I’m going to instantly fill those 7 hours, but it made me realize that I was wasting a lot of time that I could have used for writing.

How much do I want this? What am I willing to sacrifice to make my dream come true?

That’s what I will need to decide before I spend another year in revision hell.

Welcome

So this is my first blog post. It’s monumental. I feel like I should say something extremely important. After all, my blog is my voice to my fans. My hope is that people will read my books, love them and then come to my website to get to know more about me. And, hopefully, like me. So I need to be witty, engaging and clever.

I got nothing.

I’m probably not going to grab you with my first sentence. But if you come back and read a few of my posts, I think you’ll get a good sense of who I am and see that reflected in my work. I plan to do this for a long time, so we can take it nice and slow.

In the beginning I’ll keep track of my journey as I try to become a published author. Later, once I’ve had work published, I’ll do separate blogs that would be of more interest to my fans.

So welcome, and check back often.

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